| Sunday, November 30, 2008 |
| When honesty won't help where do you turn.. |
What happens when the line "honesty is the best policy" fail? What do you do? what do you turn to? Do you Lie? Lies never end, they will never stop until the truth comes out. One Lie will breed another and aonther. Soon enough you will be tangled in the web you weaved with no loop holes to climb through. Just a thought on my mind these days.
Decisions, Im just wondering, what happens when you know your options. What happens when you don't want to accept it? Does it become an ultimatum? Does it make it any easier if you dont have options? I dont know but life seems to have mixed black and white into grey. A shade I'm fond of for shirts but nothing else really. Ohh well there will come a time when decisions must be made and actions taken, but I wonder if a delay in the works is for the best or will it multiply the effects.
Lifes smooting out, potentially the best and worst hols of my life so far. Lots of good times and some dark clouds in the horizon. I hope fate will be kind and let me be, even if the odds seem stacked against me.
s4a
Jensen |
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| Monday, November 24, 2008 |
| Decisions |
The threads that hold my life together, the things that if done wrongly or without careful consideration may result in a whole different life. How can I control a life that I cant even predict, This world will never wait for me. Like the butterfly effect the small things that I decide may change oh soo many things. How do I predict such? I don't get to turn back time, I don't get to give it another shot. Lets Just hope my Head is at peak performance in the coming weeks for I fear my heart my be in a state of great confusion. Lets be logical? Or will we let the Heart take charge?
On a very very HAPPY note. Happy Birthday Wynnie! and Happy Birthday Vince! Yesterday was pretty darn fun, Singstarin the night away, spa sesh at 1am, satay through the day, Good friends, close family and more. This is the holidays that I have been waiting for. Don't let me down now. lol though Saturday night was a whole different world I think I have decided on what I want. Let the fun times roll!
Jensen |
| posted by Jensen @ 11/24/2008 11:47:00 AM |
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| Thursday, November 20, 2008 |
| Deja Vu |
Why does it always feel like this. It seems I'v been living my life on loop for a bit. Progress has been halted for the brains sake. I need a rest, I need to find out if this is still a test.
Drove off to the wonderful Resort and Casino last night. It was amazing (insert voice and enthusiasm from the incredibles)! lol truly wonderful stuff, lost some money on keno lol $3 again. Discovered why nobody goes to the ruby on a wednesday night and realised that 12 pm driving is the best time to take a wrong turn here and there, mostly because I dont have to fight the traffic to get back on track (Hmm I wonder if that actually applies to life somehow.. low traffic = easier to get back... probably does). Now I remembered why I wanted to visit Kings Park at night, thats one of few places where the peace is still left undisturbed and the stars might just show themselfs if the man made ones went out (though they hold thier own at times).
Found out a thing or two today, donno why I'm in anyway surprised. 24 hour pizza soccer spots aint all that fun unless the world cups on. Driving in places you dont know can take a lot of time to figure out, especialy if nobody else knows what direction to point you in. lol though I dont think I needed to find them out, there are other things that I realised that need more consideration.
Ahh.. boo Do you know that feeling of irratiation, the one where you are irratated by someone or something, I wont specify what but I am irrate, and you dont really want to be irratated. I know this sounds complicated, you are irratated, but you dont want to be. Can't I just be irratated and not wonder why? Clearly it isnt that easy.
The past few days are going to catch up on me soon, I just know it. One moment later on in the week its going to be bright and sunny and the next the lights will go out on me. Like the storm last night the drops will fall spaced and heavy but they will fall surely. I Don't know why I'm being pushed like this I dont really care why, there must be comprimise in the horizon. I don't know why I act this way sometimes too. I'v found that perhaps I am not who I thought I would be. Not what I want to be. Not in actions atleast. I'm going to change it so help me god there will be redemption for my actions. I'm going to try for there can be no progress without action.
Anyways, though the week has been one of great interest to me. perhaps one a little too intense. Lets step things back a gear. The holidays have come (though the late mornings will not) and I intend to see to it that some time is spent in rest and recovery. Not sure why but the last quater of this year felt a little dazy, all the missed hours seem to be getting the better of me. Let the sweet slumbers begin! lol not that it will happen with my intention>< That's all for now
Jensen |
| posted by Jensen @ 11/20/2008 08:17:00 AM |
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| Saturday, November 15, 2008 |
| A story of songs... |
What would you do if it all ended tomorrow? Save room in this perfect world of ibiza mi amor, where the weatherman freaks out for an original fire for the moody Monday is but another brick in the wall. Maxine is a sad story, she never has her head in the zone, being a heartbreaker she moves from side to side. The tiny voices of the love cats who are afraid of the big bad wolf, runaway so they can relax and take it easy. They have a heart of glass, clearing the hospital beds they make the hold up crazy. Too emotional but no woman no cry as they are not the kryptonite for they do not commit the 9 crimes.
Running in the dark, though I'll never leave you because that's how love should be. In a moment like this,in the meantime the hand of god heals the scar made by the rock of ages no matter what. They ask to let me see that ass drop while on a holiday in the sun under cocktail umbrellas. Broken hearts find new hope as they shine on bronzing their summer skin. Each day gets better with no promises, as you are my rock my king kong. I want it from you despite the tears there will be sweet dreams. Accidental babies cause me to walk on the razors edge with no sun shine. Whenever I'm with you, they will always ask do you have a story to tell? They will never create a drift between us, living in the land down under they will always be going whoa! As I will tell them I will never be without you. They will justify that part of your world with mine. Though I may be the tyrant I will never flaunt it. If you leave now I will find a summer love to re-set the mood. They will give it to me bad, claiming me as the superfreak with the beautiful girl. Smoked out of the clubs you still say lets dance when there's no music playing. We waltz along as you have me right where you want me. Though we will rock this party getting the temperature high, you don't know why they still play baby, its a wild world. That's what I foresee when I grow up.
Dont try to understand this.. Make the best sense of it you can, cause I cant tell you what it means, I just means that iTunes is telling me to write it and you can tell me what you think it means. Happy interpreting!
Jensen |
| posted by Jensen @ 11/15/2008 01:21:00 AM |
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| Thursday, November 13, 2008 |
| Delirious in the wee hours of the morning I write... |
Short and sweet today..
Stats exam pushed me to my last strings...
Annoyance is in the wind...
MA is not going to get the best of me...
7+ hours till I'm free...
Lunch on the 16th...
Drinks on the 17th...
Party on the 19th...
Party on the 21st...
Birthday on the 22nd...
Birthday on the 23rd...
Rest all the days in between...
Worries put on hold at 11.10 am 13th November 2008...
The home stretch is in sight...
Fresher year is over...
I will not put up a fight. This is how it must be...
I can see the light, Hear my plea ...
Allow me to be set free...
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The best is yet to come.
The wait is making me numb.
Forget being free.
Bring you to me.
Jensen Tan..
The one with faded plans.. |
| posted by Jensen @ 11/13/2008 03:42:00 AM |
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| Wednesday, November 5, 2008 |
| "Early" Mornin Rant :) |
Time spent in preparation is rarely wasted. That's a line I know all too well, I first read this line from the Tomorrow series by John Marsden. A series of books on the lives of a circle of friends living somewhere in the outback as Australia is invaded. I don't know if you have read it or if you will like it, but I was quite hooked on it. Mmm so it was umm kinda lame in some sense (like a game where the main character will never be able to die cause that just goes against all expectations), I liked it all the same. There were some interesting plot lines in there, Things I probably will never imagine happening to me. If Australia was invaded while I was out camping with my buddies, gosh I would have no idea what to do. Blow up a bridge did you say? How about an aeroplane hanger? Hahaha perhaps if I was the son of Rambo. I think I'd find a nice shady spot with all my buddies close my eyes and hope that when I wake up I find that instead of there being a war I just hit the jackpot in lotto! hahaha. Well we can only dream now can't we? I don't know if I could find myself to start fighting an unknown enemy, but I guess if war breaks out all rules no longer apply. He who strikes firsts lives the longest yes? haha
With exams coming up this Saturday what is a guy to do but blog about study? I've tried reading notes, listening to lectures, I might even go to a consult. I just wonder where is this all headed? Do we really need to know how confidence intervals work? I don't think so, but then again there must be some upside to this learning, is there not? Maybe the only upside is the reward of not having to do it again? Then again I quote another passage "The reward for work well done is the opportunity to do more" Did something just click in your head? Did you just go Oh snap! If I do this well I just get to do more? Did you just feel like kicking yourself in the head? Cause if you did then I'm pretty sure you're normal. I just want to know where this leads, but I guess that the thing about life, you never really get any answers just more questions. I mean really, everyone knows someone who went through uni just as I am right now (and if you're reading this your probably a buddy of mine doing uni too) and they do something like commerce and then they go out and turn into a fitness instructor. I mean WTF? Did you just say fitness instructor? I'm sure you have someone in mind that fits the profile. haha gosh.. what happens when war breaks out do we all just become survivors or casualties?
Gosh, talk about events outside of my control. I think I'll just let them flow for now. As far as I'm concerned I've got a small bubble to look after, family, friends and other material duties. Study would be Exhibit A. It seems that by getting my P's ( readers who are not from Australia P's are a reference to me getting my licence, and P is meant to stand for probationary I think) I have gotten some new responsibilities, Grocery shopping seems to have become a new chore, but that's ok. Oh and I think I just became an apprentice to the Mum's taxi service :) Life seems rather grand at the moment, smooth sailing and happy days are to come (after the exams that is).
Oh and if you happen to be binging on a song at the moment drop me a comment on what it is. That would be much appreciated :)
Happy Birthday Windah and Kev
Thanx
Jensen AKA Sonic AKA X-Island Boy AKA Jensy AKA ZZZzz |
| posted by Jensen @ 11/05/2008 02:03:00 AM |
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| Sunday, November 2, 2008 |
| Dear M-Island Girl |
Hey yo! Gosh Its Like one week from exams!! Can you feel the pressure? Cause I sure can.. Oh gosh I hope this round of exams is a breeze, Maybe I'll watch some OTH while I'm at it :)
What been happening? Been Prepping for the looming onslaught? I know I haven't.. Hahaha GOOD GOSH! I was asking round for new tunez last night and all I got was lady gaga.. and someone directing me towards the top ten charts. What has happened to the world! what has happened when you can't find yourself a song to binge on! This is clearly going to hinder my studies..
Did you know that we are no longer freshers!.. How sad is that! I really really liked being a fresher.. No need to worry about second year units and what not. I just wish we could go back and start it all again cause it was a pretty good run I'd say.. for the most part at least. Are we going to do the time capsule? Maybe make our predictions for the coming year or something. haha.
Inebriated. That's what we all shall be after these exams. Especially since its going to be W's big day soon and same goes for a few other people. These darn exams are really messing with my dates, everything seems to be getting shifted back a couple weeks. Party it up after the exams!
s2 s2
X-Island Boy |
| posted by Jensen @ 11/02/2008 11:10:00 AM |
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